It wasn’t simple. All of a sudden my small, tiny world, was starting to get bigger and bigger. Vast and mysterious like the sea. I was petrified by fear. The water of the ocean felt to me like the element of continuity between the old and the new. The huge vessel was reassuring like a floating squeaking medieval town whose walls defend it from the outside world but that could be beaten by a plague all of a sudden. The everyday stable movement forward encompassed distances that once seemed inconceivable to me. The journey became a discovery of possibility.
Never say never roots into my my personal history of panic attacks. It is a photographic series that was shot in 2015 when I decided to cross the Atlantic Ocean, as a passenger on board of a container ship. Six days from Antwerp/Belgium to Newark/USA to eventually reach Los Angeles by car and back again. At that time I could not fly on a plane. After years during which I felt I was tied in my movements and in my mind and I was scared about everything, I wanted and I needed to do something, for me. So I travelled as far as possible from home and, maybe, from myself. 'Never say never' is not a documentation. It is an exploration of my feelings and a glimpse through my intimate relationship with fear, desires, freedom, impotence and my psychological distress.