It wasn’t simple. All of a sudden my small, tiny world, was starting to get bigger and bigger. Vast and mysterious like the sea. I was petrified by fear. The water of the ocean felt to me like the element of continuity between the old and the new. The huge vessel was reassuring like a floating squeaking medieval town whose walls defend it from the outside world but that could be beaten by a plague all of a sudden. The everyday stable movement forward encompassed distances that once seemed inconceivable to me. The journey became a discovery of possibility.   Never say never roots  into my my personal history of panic attacks. It is a photographic series that was shot in 2015 when I decided to cross the Atlantic Ocean, as a passenger on board of a container ship. Six days from Antwerp/Belgium to Newark/USA to eventually reach Los Angeles by car and back again. At that time I could not fly on a plane. After years during which I felt I was tied in my movements and in my mind and I was scared about everything, I wanted and I needed to do something, for me. So I travelled as far as possible from home and, maybe, from myself. 'Never say never' is not a documentation. It is an exploration of my feelings and a glimpse through my intimate relationship with fear, desires, freedom, impotence and my psychological distress.

It wasn’t simple. All of a sudden my small, tiny world, was starting to get bigger and bigger. Vast and mysterious like the sea. I was petrified by fear. The water of the ocean felt to me like the element of continuity between the old and the new. The huge vessel was reassuring like a floating squeaking medieval town whose walls defend it from the outside world but that could be beaten by a plague all of a sudden. The everyday stable movement forward encompassed distances that once seemed inconceivable to me. The journey became a discovery of possibility.

Never say never roots into my my personal history of panic attacks. It is a photographic series that was shot in 2015 when I decided to cross the Atlantic Ocean, as a passenger on board of a container ship. Six days from Antwerp/Belgium to Newark/USA to eventually reach Los Angeles by car and back again. At that time I could not fly on a plane. After years during which I felt I was tied in my movements and in my mind and I was scared about everything, I wanted and I needed to do something, for me. So I travelled as far as possible from home and, maybe, from myself. 'Never say never' is not a documentation. It is an exploration of my feelings and a glimpse through my intimate relationship with fear, desires, freedom, impotence and my psychological distress.

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 It wasn’t simple. All of a sudden my small, tiny world, was starting to get bigger and bigger. Vast and mysterious like the sea. I was petrified by fear. The water of the ocean felt to me like the element of continuity between the old and the new. The huge vessel was reassuring like a floating squeaking medieval town whose walls defend it from the outside world but that could be beaten by a plague all of a sudden. The everyday stable movement forward encompassed distances that once seemed inconceivable to me. The journey became a discovery of possibility.   Never say never roots  into my my personal history of panic attacks. It is a photographic series that was shot in 2015 when I decided to cross the Atlantic Ocean, as a passenger on board of a container ship. Six days from Antwerp/Belgium to Newark/USA to eventually reach Los Angeles by car and back again. At that time I could not fly on a plane. After years during which I felt I was tied in my movements and in my mind and I was scared about everything, I wanted and I needed to do something, for me. So I travelled as far as possible from home and, maybe, from myself. 'Never say never' is not a documentation. It is an exploration of my feelings and a glimpse through my intimate relationship with fear, desires, freedom, impotence and my psychological distress.
DSC_9063.jpg
DSC_9570.jpg
DSC_9591.jpg
DSC_9608-2.jpg
DSC_9869.jpg
DSC_9176.jpg
DSC_9187.jpg
DSC_0182.jpg
27_DSC_9026.jpg
DSC_9482.jpg
Carlotta-Guerra_Never-say-never_10.jpg
DSC_7355.jpg
DSC_8528.jpg
DSC_8011bis.jpg
DSC_7900.jpg
DSC_8514.jpg
59_DSC_9818.jpg
DSC_9336.jpg
DSC_8972.jpg
22_DSC_7305.jpg
DSC_9883.jpg
DSC_9974.jpg
DSC_8432.jpg
DSC_8850.jpg
DSC_7537.jpg
DSC_7985.jpg
25_DSC_9019.jpg
DSC_7391.jpg
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60_DSC_9070.jpg
DSC_9263.jpg
DSC_9617.jpg
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It wasn’t simple. All of a sudden my small, tiny world, was starting to get bigger and bigger. Vast and mysterious like the sea. I was petrified by fear. The water of the ocean felt to me like the element of continuity between the old and the new. The huge vessel was reassuring like a floating squeaking medieval town whose walls defend it from the outside world but that could be beaten by a plague all of a sudden. The everyday stable movement forward encompassed distances that once seemed inconceivable to me. The journey became a discovery of possibility.

Never say never roots into my my personal history of panic attacks. It is a photographic series that was shot in 2015 when I decided to cross the Atlantic Ocean, as a passenger on board of a container ship. Six days from Antwerp/Belgium to Newark/USA to eventually reach Los Angeles by car and back again. At that time I could not fly on a plane. After years during which I felt I was tied in my movements and in my mind and I was scared about everything, I wanted and I needed to do something, for me. So I travelled as far as possible from home and, maybe, from myself. 'Never say never' is not a documentation. It is an exploration of my feelings and a glimpse through my intimate relationship with fear, desires, freedom, impotence and my psychological distress.

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