All of a sudden my small, tiny world, was starting to get bigger and bigger. Vast and mysterious like the sea. I was petrified by fear. The water of the ocean felt to me like the element of continuity between the old and the new. The everyday stable movement forward of the huge vessel encompassed distances that once seemed inconceivable to me. The journey became a discovery of possibility.
Never say never roots into my my personal history of panic attacks. It is a photographic series that was shot in 2015 when I decided to cross the Atlantic Ocean, as a passenger on board of a container ship. Six days from Antwerp/Belgium to Newark/USA to eventually reach Los Angeles by car and back again. At that time I could not fly on a plane. After years during which I felt I was tied in my movements and in my mind, I wanted and needed to do something, for me. So I travelled as far as possible from home and, maybe, from myself. 'Never say never' is a documentation and an exploration of my feelings during the journey and a glimpse through my intimate relationship with fear, desires, freedom, impotence.